-Tennessee Williams, playwright
A customer came into my work last night (the mundane work of scooping ice cream for a Brady Bunch community of El Segundo) and noticed I was singing the words to every song that would come on (mostly cheesy 80's songs that play over and over again so it's easy for it to get stuck in my brain)at my work. The customer then commented that "hey you have to do something you love to get through the day." Quickly I retorted "If only I was doing something I love" to which the customer said something along the lines of ain't that the truth. so here I am suffering a quarter life crisis where I am at the cross roads of my life trying to decide the quintessential question of where I see myself....marriage? family? career? traveling? Bum? circus freak? All essential questions in the quest to define myself. So in the long road since my youth (which ended only about 2 years ago) I have decided to plant myself in the field of JOURNALISM.
Which brings me back to the statement of "doing something I love." Do I love journalism? The answer is like a double edged sword. Journalism is like a love/hate relationship for me, I LOVE writing, I HATE the politics involved. On some days I feel like I turned out a real good story and on others I just think this is a piece of shit. There are days I feel like I don't belong in the field of journalism and that there are other people around me who I feel write a journalism piece a lot better than I do and I think I am just doing this for the time being, it is a career in writing, which is what I ultimately want to do. Like my good friend once said: "If you are getting into writing for the money your a fucking dumb ass."
Two years ago if you had asked anybody that knows me what career they thought I would be into, they would be probably respond without hesitation: film. I harbor desires to be a director like Martin Scorsese and a writer like Charlie Kaufman (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind). I could tell you who wrote, directed, starred, scored, and how many awards a movie won but how does that come in handy. Sure I've attempted scriptwriting (currently working on one now but that will be saved for another blog) but that is a profession that everyone in SoCal is attempting and I am just another statistic in the game. So I guess that is why I got into journalism so I could do something in the meanwhile and who knows french director Jean Luc Godard started as a journalist so maybe I can be that lucky.
I LOVE writing. I LOVE film. Do I LOVE journalism? Let's just say she (Miss Journalism) is a fine companion for now.
(miles R. will return in...Miles PER Deadline
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